- 70 -

Nothing done at all. Partner wasn`t into anything but spending money for shit. Don`t get the appeal of fastfood and Co. anymore. I have eaten the bag of crisps but couldn`t get any satisfaction out of it.

- 69 -

There isn`t much going on. Boring work, well it was boring until I was taken off calls and could listen to podcasts. The job is still boring. I have gotten job offers again but they were in Dublin.

- 68 -

Oh Dear, big callout by the members of CS was the lack of career progression even after the big career path project. Now, they want us to be trained in CV writing and interview skills. Since years I get feedback that people are needed who know how to use certain programs and no training nor opportunity for use were provided. With other words that campaign is again just prestige and not for help.

My son has lost today his first tooth. But he lost it for good. "It fell out and then a car was standing on it and I couldn`t get it", Oh Snap, I wanted to keep it as it marks a step in his development. He also hates it that the teacher called him mister as he wants to be called miss. Well, he was the first in the family to come out and it`s still going on.

- 67 -

Oh my god, I was so tired today that I have slept through the Tag Rugby game and missed it. That never happened before but I`m so exhausted. Feeling embarressed as I have tomorrow the walk of shame to work. The worst thing, I was looking forward to the game.

- 66 -

AEW Fyter Fest was a great watch and saved the Wrestling landscape. It is interesting to have a new US based company filling stadiums again. The quality of these matches is high and their fans are awesome. I might even watch the weekly show once it hits the air.

- 65 -

I`m quite happy not to be directly affected by this years cock up by the management. The promotions are a sour thing for so many and some people thinking about formal complaining. HR will do bloddy nothing as the complainers wouldn`t be directly affected. The complainers should just nominate the team leader for an award due to his success. That way the business has to talk about it.

- 64 -

Got some heeled boots. Not quite as much high heeled as I would have preferred but they match the look I want to go for. In theory they would also fit in trousers and don`t appear so feminine that way, Probable should test them at work. Who knows?

- 63 -

We have seen "Toy Story 4". That was an unexpected good movie. I mean you would expect it to be halfway decent but it actually brought tears to my eyes.

Also, I found a little more for my General Jinjur costume.

Nero also did a little spanking and so on. He doesn`t seem to come fully out and is too concerned about me and what I want during sessions. If he wants to be dominant he should have some fantasy.

- 62 -

Nothing went on "Work is boring and I am tired. Every Friday I just want to kill someone, leave, scream or something of that kind. My work makes me aggressive. I`m happy to have the opportunity to leave steam at the gym. Gosh! I hate my job!

- 61 -

First Huddle with new team leader:
A question regarding the result regarding an employee poll was raised. The poll was more than 2 months ago. There are no plans to share the results but at the same point an action plan is presented. Utter nonsense just tell us that the result was bad and we can work it out.
Also due promotions "for the lads who filled all criteria." Or better known as all the former night shift guys who lost their nightwork bonus. It`s nice that they are helping them but why do they try to lie about it. Are they afraid we complain to the business or do they need to produce more and more lies. They don`t even try to be trusted.

- 60 -

I was so tired today. I have managed to go to the gym and the Tag Rugby but I was tired the whole day. I should catch up with the sleep.

- 59 -

And CFI stated that they had too many applications and that I didn`t get the gig.

Otherwise a day like every other. I was supposed to do the scheduling for the calls and was asked at some point why we had calls waiting. It turned out that these guys put themselves off calls. Well, that way I could have scheduled whatever I want without achieving anything.

- 58 -

The job interview I had was strange. They stated in some questions that I have had answered that one also in the previous one. That seem to be logical but all other departments don`t do it that way and want to have a different example. Is that now a good or bad sign? Did they just want to get over the interviews and they had already found a candidate or were they using actual logical thinking? Wow, how confusing it can be to encounter common sense in the company.

- 57 -

Cosplay is cool. I could express who I really am and people were friendly. Well, of course not exactly who I am but close enough. People were asking how I made the shoes and wanted pictures with me. Ok, I`m not the femine type but nice to have had some what of an impression. Also, a nice way to get in touch with people when you are actually very shy.

- 56 -

Nothing special happens. Life is mostly performing routines. Well, I don`t want to write about doing dishes or mowing the lawn. I tried to research stuff for the next costume. I have also seen a picture of a penis which was dissected during an operation. I understand why many transwomen prefer to keep it. Scary stuff... Well, who knows?

- 55 -

Nero came to work stating that they have spoken with the estate agent who stated that the timeframe for the termination of a letting contract was 28 days. The RTB said 84 days. We have decided to sent the letter using the larger timeframe to avoid legal issues and that we could still sent a letter with the shorter timeframe if needed.

On another note, some gay man is extremely flirting with me. That is actually flattering.

- 54 -

Termination of the rental/letting contact is underwritten. Let`s see if Nero is actually posting it. He isn`t the most reliable guy. Well, he hasn`t contacted a electrician. I don`t like if I`m responsible for everything.

- 53 -

Today, we have signed the forms for the solicitor that he can act in front of the bank on our behalfs for the mortgage and that he can pass the information on.

I have also written a letter to the landlord to terminate our contract with him.

Also played Tag Rugby. The ref has sent somebody off but that team put just another player on and when he stated that the penality time over and that they could be back at 7 he blushed as he realised that he hasn`t paying enough attention. Oh well, one of those days for him, I suppose.

- 52 -

Biggest news today:
The solicitor has the contracts for the house. Finally freedom to live an own life and to put pictures or cupboards on a wall, to work on the house and so on. I`m delighted.

- 51 -

I read today everything about corsets. Well, work is boring and the topic seemed interesting. I would have to look out for an underbust model. They have also different models depending on the experience. They all look amazing but for me it would be one of those fairy tale ones. Well, this Sunday is my first cosplay coming out and I am planning already the second. After Dorothy I want to make a general Jinjur costume. She is more mature than Dorothy and not so often done which would mean I would have more freedom with the design and presentation. I`m looking for a green military shirt, a four coloured skirt/dress, black high heeled boots and some cool hat. Well, I have two month for the final design.

- 50 -

Bulldog Razers

They are great. The first time since I`m in Ireland I have a proper clean shave. I tried them all but that brand is actually good.

I have also got today a root beer. Never tried that before but I got it as a floater with ice-cream. Root beer is nice but I reckon I prefer to have some malt in my beer or my soda not that sweet. My son has taken the rest of the can. He is keen on it.

- 49 -

If you are into torture waxing is the way to go. It is quite known that removing the strips is extremely painful. However, that`s only one second of pain while you feel you could start to cry at any moment. What nobody tells you that putting that stuff on is already pulling on the hair. It is getting worse once the wax is getting colder.

The results are quite different. I mean I have still plenty of hair left but it looks much better than the results of the cream. See, we have also gotten cream. That can be the project for tomorrow.

- 48 -

I have received today my first letter with the other name. Very excited. It will take a while to get use to it but it feels good. Now, I have some document for proof of name for Facebook. That helps me to get stuff sorted out earlier. I`m tired now. I want to go to bed.

- 47 -

So, I`m in charge of the department. Wow, there is actually quite a lack of communication and challenges but challenges. A teammate went home without telling anyone. At least I didn`t know. That person was the last for covering one of the lines and it took some time to notice and to look for a replacement. Then, we have two new teammates. The names appeared in the scheduling tool. However, nobody told us who they are and that they were supposed to be in the department. Another teammate wanted to file a CT for a huge amount but nobody had admin permissions to do so. The item was actually not for our department at all but since we said that we would do it we made it happen. I wish there would be more cases like that. I like that kind of organisation work.

- 46 -

Tag Rugby was amazing!
Shite weather... Rain, wet, cold, windy but I missed the game. Twisted my ankle in the second half but still kept pushing. Love the positive attitude in the team and I hope that more will come along once the weather gets better.

- 45 -

So today something different the company thought by itself. I have a new team leader. I don`t have a different position. They have just moved all team leaders and teammates around.

Well, I was allowed to make a new seating plan. I have used the names on the communication email. I don`t know if all names are included. Some teammates have middle names and sometimes the system is using the one and sometimes the other. Well, that is some expression of diversity, I guess. We have also a Compliance manager sitting between us. Nobody told something about him nor was asked where he could sit best. Well, now we have him between a team.

- 44 -

Working is more boring without any task. The system didn`t deliver anything. Damn. That is nice for a short time but once you have done everything what else is there to do? I`m now POC for our team leader while she is in training which is something but also not too much.

Today was also an inclusion training. Somehow stressful if everything is about sharing identities and you just want to avoid identity. I`m not ready for full stage yet.

However, afterwards I had an intense body building session. That is quite exhausting. Well, not as much as the Crossfit stuff I did but I`m just starting out. I am now making sure that every muscle in my body isolated trained instead going for compound movements. Let`s see how much it will wreck me in months to come.

- 43 -

I love my red shoes. They and my women trousers are actually boosting my confidence. I ran today through town. People mind anyway their own business. Funny enough younger people are actually reacting more than older people. But also they lemme be.

However, I don`t do make up in public. Well, a comic con is coming up. That will be used as kind of safe tryout. If it looks too weird it is part of my costume. I don`t give me stress over this.

- 42 -

Aloa, dear diary, I knew it blue and blue denim colour is too much to much to deal with. Some colours please. Well, the other nice things were still drying - What could I do? However, never again, thank you very much. Communist leader look isn`t for me, I guess.

Oh, son wanted to see a movie. He was near to broken when cinema was overlooked we offered an alternative but he felt it has to be the Secret Life of Pets 2. We went two hours later to cinema again. Well, he was happy and it was a good family movie.

Nero was working on his cosplay costume and I had time enough to have stuff sorted. Now, tomorrow I have to do video editing. Still so much to do.

- 41 -

Team Night Out at work.
I work with pleasant people who are all great craic. Everybody has a bunch of great stories to tell. It`s sad that we really don`t share personal stuff so often at work. It makes coworkers people.

-40-

Son of the landlord came back. I was there but wouldn`t talk to him. He was full of nonsense when I met him afterwards. He has now 20 % more and want some stuff to be done. I agreed just to get him out of the house. He confirmed that the house isn`t registered on the RTB but wanted to tell us that this isn`t mandatory. He also gave his famous fairness speech he always does when he raises rent out of the legal cycle.
Well, Nero is checking something from a legal perspective. Otherwise, we can also register the house on the RTB ourselves/report the house for not being registered.

-39-

Hospital Tour
Nero had an appointment at the hospital in Dublin. That took ages. He went driving from here at 11:00 and returned at 18:30. To my surprise my son coped well with that. He waited patiently in the hospital for 2 1/2 hours and was also easy in the car. He actually enjoyed the trip. We went for a short walk to discover the hospital and he found a flower and sniffed on it. He than asked me for the name of the flower. "Poppy," I stated. He then was like "Wow, I resisted a poppy. It only made me a little sleepy". He is convinced that Oz must be close to Dublin when there are poppies in Dublin. He will come back to Dublin to find the Emerald City, he said.

-38-

The son of the landlord was at the door. He was stating that he has to raise the rent for time being. I don`t know how legal it is but I went along. It is just for the last couple of months. 30 % is still a bummer. I haven`t told Nero yet. The son also want to make an inspection. I had an anxiety attack. There is so much which needs to be fixed. I can`t deal with so much at once. I`m out.

-37-

We went to the Slieve of Gullion. On the way was a farmer who is setting his herd of cows from one meadow to the next. We waited and drove slowly behind them. At some point the farmer drove to the side and waited. So we also waited until his wife riding shotgun was waving with her stick. So we started to pass by. The cattle hadn`t finished yet and the wife hit the car with the stick while the farmer gave us abuse. Well, case of miscommunication left everyone involved pissed. Nothing could be done about it now but to learn to be careful about the perception of communication and actions.

-36-

I`ve tried out make up. It is extremely difficult to put on and hard to master. I was always bad at such things and require plenty of practice. Well, Nero is helping me for all it`s worth. He came also out in front of his sisters which are cool with it.

-35-

The Tain March was today arriving in town. Queen Maeve arrived on a chariot with the sounds of drums. They made this time the play better than usual and brought more details to the story.

The wee one was all dressed up and enjoyed his audience with the queen. The lady playing her is also a lovely woman. The boy found later a friend to play sword fight.

I got to booths for some make up and to drop the application for the customer reward card.

-34-

At work the system wasn`t working properly. Working any escalation was painful. Gladly, there weren`t that many calls. After work I have seen Day 8 of the Best of Super jr. tournament. Will Osprey vs Bandido delivered the best match of the year so far. After that there was some quality time with Nero.

-33-

I fell almost asleep at work. The tasks are only monotone and bear no challenge. The applications to other departments are left unanswered. My company is OK but my actual work is the most boring I have ever had. Since months I do the very same stuff which I did when I started out more than 8 years ago. I used to do analysis or developed concepts in between. I can`t grasp why the task had to change that much for me.
Technically, I would apply for a demotion if I apply for a previous role but those are much more interesting and challenging.

-32-

The new workout is fun. However, I have no idea how to track success with it. I can in theory make one heavy set and one light set and rest somewhere in between or also all heave or light. I`ll see in some weeks if it does the job.
Rest of the day was just admin work or an eye test for Nero. Gladly, his eyes didn`t got worst. It were just his glasses which weren`t adjusted correctly. I`m delighted for him.

-31-

Somehow my mouth feels a little numb. I don`t really know what it is . Slight burn on the underlip. Maybe I have a small inflammation. Let`s wait and see.

-30-

My diet and workout program is since a couple of weeks on the same level. I`m now much stronger than ever but the number on the scale isn`t moving and my belly is still enormous. I`ll start a different program tomorrow and adjust the diet in four weeks. Let`s see how for I can go.

-29-

Playing at the Family Day

The work organised a "Family Fun Day". This time at the office grounds. With crafting, VR games, bouncy castles and a small circus. All three of us enjoyed playing with diabolos which the circus put out at each of their breaks. We all want one now. At first we were awful but soon enough I could bounce it in the air and catch it again while Nero did some spinning trick. The wee one was happy when he figured out how not to lose it and showed a great deal of patience which I haven`t seen him have before. A Great Day for all of us.

-28-

I went today with my new trousers and my son to the gym and to the town. Nero has eaten raw poultry the day before and knocked himself to bed. The day was nice. The boy wanted some kind of old fashioned scale. We have looking all over town for it. Yet, it was plenty of fun.

-27-

Today, work was boring as usual. In the evening the dinner was served late my son was almost 3 hours late for bed. However, he is good companion. He was getting a book over to have it read to him and wanted to share the timer he was playing with.

When I said that children will get a present at the family day at work he was asking if the parent s would also getting presents. I told him that this wouldn`t be done usually. He stated that it would be fine as he could share his presents with us.

-26-

Finishing off work today. Somebody sent e in the last minute an external customer and went home right afterwards. I don`t get why people think they can get away with not doing their own jobs. I`ll have to sent it on but the answer will be more like an "oops" didn`t realise.

Ah well, hope we can fix the issue of the customer. He seemed to be a nice guy who was just annoyed by being passed around.

Same also with a co-worker who had a timely escalation but is looking for someone for tomorrow to finish it. Without team leader consent it wouldn`t be possible. Damn, I feel sorry for him but these are the rules and we all getting punished by not following them.

-25-

The bank has now the legal translation for the loan. Angela stated she forwarded it to the management. Now it is for us to wait.

-24-

I don`t really now what I shall write. I have sore muscles everywhere and it doesn`t really go away. Well, as long as the body still does it at the gym it doesn`t really matter. I remember last year when I fried my CNS. That feels awful. Your full body is on alert approximate a week, you are without any stamina nor strength, can`t really sleep well. I will be careful.

-23-

Today my son was upset. They have a sticker system at his school. If the children behave well they can get up to four stickers. He got only one because the teacher hat to leave early and a different one jumped in. Funny, that this can affect his feeling of honour that much.

Otherwise not much going on. Still waiting for the solicitor or bank to give green light for the house.

I could get a jersey of my hometown from their rugby team. I would be the first non-team member to be able to show colours. Cool Stuff.

-22-

Today, we went to Newry. I got for my son and myself "Alice in Wonderland". We got the inspiration from a rap battle between Dorothy and Alice. After I bought a small version of the book, my husband told me that the edition I was looking for was moved to the tills.

Well, then we have the cheaper made version now. Damn, wanted to have it as fancy as possible for cheap.

He also found some shoulder less, belly free top. He wants me to have me wearing that. I remarked my fat belly, hairy shoulders and age but he said it be for the bedroom to embarass me. That would turn him on. It was way to expensive for what it was but I told him that I have anyway to go to Primark next week.

-21-

Well, I have now the old diagnosis of Wehnen. There were already sexual orientation and identity mentioned but it was not part of the therapy. Futher wasn`t there an outcome or anything on this. However, my own fault, I guess. I could have pushed it in one direction or the other. Oh well, I reckon psychotic episodes aren`t helping such things.

Nero is living the mobile phone dream. Sexual RPG with other people. Well, not that I`m here or anything. Stating that he could be what he wants in these games. A well man, get your stuff straight. Don`t mind playing that stuff but not when I have nothing to do or if we have to do something. I don`t want to run a one woman show.

-20-

I have written to a member of the Pride committee at work. We have discussed the opportunity to change the preferred name at work. Apparently there was a case in Berlin in which a teammate was granted a name change. The member looked up the needed form which needs to be filled out. It seems that even our NT tags can be changed. She also asked if she would be allowed to forward the mail I sent her to another member to get more information. Using this approach at work seems easier than expected. It was some asking for a friend kind of deal.

Otherwise, I have gotten good tips for transitional clothing styles from someone online. I don`t want to hit someone over the head with my change but an androgynous style seems to be the weapon of choice here.

 Well, more of that tomorrow.

-19-

That was some long working day. Glad that it is finally over. However, Semifinal II of Eurovision and browsing the internet for nice clothing almost saved it. If I could only sleep. I fell asleep around 1:30. Four hours of recovery will have to do.

-18-

I went today to the Outcomers. This organisation is helping people from the LGTBQ community. Bernhardine took quite some of her time to explain all relevant actions for the begin of a transition. She also asked who my employer is and confirmed to have heard good things from him reputation wise.
She recommend if I`m sure to live as a woman before making any official approach to a psychologist. Also stated that psychologists shy away to confirm gender identity issues. I`m grateful to have met her.

-17-

Eurovision Semi-Final 1. Australia has taken the biscuit in campi perfection. I love that kind of kitsch. Otherwise a boring day. Glad that the Eurovision saved it.

-16-

Today was the birthday of my son,  years old. But he had also to go to school, poor him. Once he came out we tried to make the best of the day we could - with cinema, Mc Donald`s and presents. He also got a story at the end. He was in glee. Nero and I got also some time for ourselves while the wee man was at school. That is important for bonding. However, I`m tired now. Maybe I`ll write more tomorrow.

-15-

I went with my son to the Carlingford Leprechaun Hunt. The whole village was full of people looking for the gold of the leprechauns. The hunt is quiet similar as an Easter egg hunt.

My son got from a lady one pot because he was without one when she met us. He received a voucher for a gold (plated) coin and he is very proud of it.

But hell, you need endurance to search a whole village or those pots. That is one reason why we haven`t brought Nero with us. He cleaned the living room. It is much nicer now, good man.

-14-

Saturday evening and he has still not managed to clean the living room. He has no job and plenty of time but it seems that I have to do everything. I have to earn the money for the family. think about every organisational crap and reminder him about everything and look after the house.

I`m out. If he doesn`t want to do something I`ll just keep also my money. The evening he brought our son to bed and it took 90 minutes to come back. The same person who always says he wants to watch movies together. I`m just sitting and waiting to start something before I have to go to bed myself.

-13-

Today was a calm day. I was at work and also with no excitement afterwards. Well, not totally right I have spent some quality time with my son. We were playing some games and were watching music videos together. He wanted to watch "Have a nice day" from New World Order and then one good song followed the next. My son has a great taste for music.

-12-

Ok, now my penfriend knows it all. He is coll with that and interested. He is cool with that and interested. Now I have to find out if that stuff comes in phases, do I have a second personality or am I a woman. Why couldn`t I ask myself that stuff earlier? Why do I do some stuff always that late? Well, I need to get a doctor at some point, I guess.

-11-

Well, this was a day.

I didn`t do much but squatted 5 x 1 140 kg. I`m feeling powerful. I have also managed to drop the missing letter from the German solicitor to the Irish one. It all depends now on his approval for the translation and I could be a house owner.

We also went to organise a cake for the wee man`s birthday.

Everything could come together.

I have also started phase 2 of my diet earlier than expected. I`m ahead of my timeplan and now wanting to achieve 70 kg by end of the year.

-10-

My penfriend didn`t quite understand what I told him. He was like as long as your wife doesn`t have a strapon...
Well, she has and I don`t mind as I don`t feel much with my own cock anyway.

Well, I can`t blame him. He is the 2nd person I told/wrote to about my "issues" and I`m probable not trained enough to come out in full and directly.

-9-

I`ve opened myself toward a pen friend. He is now the 2nd person who knows about my recent psychological issues and also of my identity crisis. It is hard to tell a third party about it but hey he is a pen friend - the worst what could happen is that he stops writing. The man has his issues on his own and offered an open ear. Own fault if he gets shocked. However, let`s see how he reacts.

-8-

The car meeting was on again.

The wee one loved the old and custom cars and wanted to look at every engine which was on display. He made himself a mission to ask about the horsepower of all cars. I reckon that he had fun.

In the afternoon he wanted to go on the ferris wheel of the funfair which is in town. With excitement he was looking at every landmark he could remember.

I seemed to have a good day overall.

-7-

We went today and bought an epilator.  The thing needed several attempts and repetitions o deal with my breast but seems to be able to handle legs. But yes, it hurts a bit and I`m not sure how he behaves with some marks and bumps I have. I guess I will find out soon enough.

Nero can tell what he wants for the active part he is quite passive and without imagination. Well, he is also very tired in recent weeks as he spent every free second with that blasted mobile phone of his. I should kick him to work at some point to get a reason for being tired. I don`t like that his head is only somewhere else and with other people rather than his family.

-6-

Today our head of department wanted to have a meeting with me. He asked about progress on feedback. He was surprised that I have seen that on previously provided feedback and made it all about concerns of the group rather than my own. He put extra time in as he stated that he is concerned about me and my personal well being. Trying to tickle out a slipper.

I wasn`t prepared what that meeting was about but he was also not prepared of the direction I have taken in this meeting. I advised him as he asked if I`m not satisfied with the current situation and indicated that this would effect my work if I`m not satisfied. I have advised him that I`m not satisfied with the situation at work since 2 years but still did by times 23 % of all escalations which were received by the department, got every price or extra raise they had and worked on everything the department has to offer. That was the reason for my wish to move on.

He made some mistakes in his argumentation but would love to meet with me again whenever I would wish for. That I haven`t trust in that man doesn`t really let me look forward that option.

-5-

Today there were awesome news at the huddle at work. I`m now involved in two big projects. I can now approve CT`s for up to 1,000 USD. As many of the participants are in mentoring there is my moment to shine. But even better

There will be a new Fraud Ring workflow. The direction will go as proposed be me and I`m the representative from Dundalk. It seems that I can soon do what I love again and my job can become after 2 - 3 years fun again. I could also get exposure which could of actual value and my job will have a purpose! The others will have a chance to get also that feeling once the project becomes a success. For that I`ll work extra hard.

-4-

Today wasn`t much going on. Even at work was part of the system down. I haven`t shut my programs down and could still work. However, I have still used the downtime for an extra long break. But I get bored to quickly if nothing is going on.

I have seen my show this evening and read to my son part of Road to Oz which he very much enjoyed.

I also like that book. Frank L. Baum didn`t only had imagination but had a very clever and captivating syle of writing. I reckon I am going to read much more of him.

I don`t have more for the day.

-3-

Today, in the morning I went to the gym. I got a new record in Shoulder Press (50 kg). YEAH! My back squat is with 155 kg still very strong but I have to work on the proper form.

I have discovered an interesting Webcomic called Namesake. It picks up the fantasy worlds from old literature and describes what happens after 100 years.

Otherwise a regular day. Working, watching Emerald City, reading to my son.

I have a cosplay costume all prepared. Wig, dress, shoes and a basket for a proper Dorothy Gale. Dan, I love the shoes and that dress I have made. However, still looking it pulling off the next one.

I can see why shopping is fun for so many women.

-2-

Today Nero helped me with the back. It was freezing cold and she had here and there more ideas. I was freezing after 10 minutes. However, it went on for an hour. I went afterwards directly to get clothes on as fast as possible.

Well, most of the hair on back, shoulders, chest and the gentleman area are removed. That feels great. However, I can still see the black roots which isn`t great.

I`ll have to come up with something.

I have also sent a mail and a copy of my passport to Wehnen in order to to receive the documents they have about me to get in touch with the GP. I haven`t told Nero about the psychotic episodes I have had recently and don`t want to worry her too much . She has enough to deal with already.

1

My partner is very supportive. She went yesterday with me to buy underwear. Actually, it was her who got the idea to go into the store to get some. The underwear I got looks cute. I need somehow to lose a few more weight to pull it off. Since I`m now proud owner of bras and panties I was today looking for something to get rid of my bodyhair.

We went today to Newry for shopping. I got a cream. Well, actually I wanted just to do my shoulders but it began to make fun. My chest looks pale but with several of surviving hair patches. I hope that my partner will help me tomorrow. I still need the back done. Well, the front has be done with a razer anyway.

I will see to find a solution for the gym once I`m home there. Interesting times. Now, I`m watching Emerald City. Great Show.